Do you know what it's like to hurt the ones you love the most? It's been along time since I've posted. And I find myself in raw emotion, and the reality of what cannot be undone. Why would I choose now to share with you? Why wouldn't I wait to have a brighter moment? Because this is real, this is life.
Just to back up a bit, I am still reading the Bible in a year! I have to admit it hasn't been perfect! I have missed chapters, verses, even things that the Lord may have spoken to me. I have missed moments with my husband, with my kiddos and there is no one else to blame but myself.Yet, The whole summer has passed swiftly by, and it was a sweet, sweet summer! We had whimsical, simple, breathtaking endeavors!
And here we are, settling into sweatshirts, pumpkin bars and bonfires! There is a rush of schedules and structure, I am not sure we are completely at peace with. But we are making room. Room for friends, for family. I took in my nephews first football game, we've crossed off a few days of school. Ups and downs, sound thinking and whirlwinds of emotion. Again, not one day or night of perfection, but a closing of the day with "it is well" and also some restless nights. Today, I had a few moments of failure, but nothing that can't be redeemed.
But last night I watched my son fail in his own eyes at a cross country meet. I said to him this one meet, it is significant but it doesn't define u. Wherever you are at in life, know that your moments of failure never define you. There is always redemption. Think of the cross, think of what was finished there. Think of your God who loves you. Let the truth set you free. He takes your failures Realignslines them so that you might be strong in him. May he be your all in all today. You are enough, because he is enough.
